The movie, “To be or not to be”, is a comedy film by Mel Brooks about a group of stage actors who are trying to escape from the Nazis in the newly occupied Poland in 1939. In one scene, Frederick Bronski, played by Mel Brooks, was asked to act like a Nazi Colonel in order to fool a Polish spy for the Nazis. And in the film, he managed to do so. At the end of the scene he exclaimed, “I fooled them … I gave the greatest performance of my life and no one was there to see it.”
In the gospel for today, we see the greatest act of humankind being played out and nobody was there to see it. In the backwater town of Nazareth, the angel Gabriel was sent to a very young Mary. Most probably she was just around 13 or 14 years of age, when she, who represents all the human beings that ever lived, was asked by the angel if she would agree with God’s plan or not. The whole salvation history, which was thousands of years in the planning, boiled down to the decision of one girl, if she was generous enough to give her life for the sake of God’s plan to save all humankind. And all of this happened without anybody to see it except Mary and the angel Gabriel.
Mary was preparing herself to live out the life of an ordinary woman. That is to marry Joseph, since she was already betrothed to him then have a few children and be a good mother and a housewife. And living in an unknown village, most probably, that would be the life that Mary would prefer. But God had other plans; she was to be the mother of the Son of God. She was to bring into the world the child who was destined to die in order that all of us might live. And if you were Mary, that responsibility would have been mind-boggling!
And yet, when this was announced by the angel, Mary only had one clarification; “how can this be since I’m a virgin?” The angel explained how everything would come about and most probably after a long breath, Mary said those words that would start the plan of God, prepared since the beginning of Creation, “I am the handmaid of the Lord. Let it be done to me according to your word”.
This momentous event that all believers were waiting for thousands of years for is not just a prayer or a dream, it is now a reality. And it all depended on the answer of a young teenager. Many theologians have posed the question of the unlikely possibility of Mary saying “No”. God may have given Mary the gift of being immaculately conceived but what God did not take away was her free will. And yet, Mary forgoes all her plans for herself and totally lets God take control of her life. Mary may not understand everything that is happening for her or will happen to her but she was generous enough to be a part of God’s great plan of salvation for all of us.
I remember when we were doing our retreat in preparation for our Final Vows, I told my fear to our Retreat Master during one of my spiritual directions. I said, “I realise that after everything and all the evaluations that I’ve gone through, I’m really pleased to be recommended to profess my Final Vows and yet I feel so unworthy for so great a privilege”. My Retreat Master replied, “We know that nobody is really worthy of this privilege. But what the Lord is asking of us is to be generous enough to say, ‘Yes’ to his call to follow him.” And I did and until now I still feel unworthy of such a privilege and yet I know that the Lord has been very patient and most probably glad that I said ‘Yes’.
Each of us is called by the Lord to follow him in one-way or the other. Most, if not all of us, would feel unworthy and would have the temptation of doing something else and following our own will instead of God’s, and yet God continues to invite us and to trust him that if we allow ourselves to be used by God we will be genuinely happy for the rest of our lives.
That’s why the invitation of God continues every day. The question is not about whether we are worthy or not, it is all about whether we are generous enough or not to say YES to his will.